21/9/06

// feeling :: :)
// prayer for :: Tmr's cell!

Weeeeell. I was almost late for my Chinese exam today. -.- But in the end with God's grace I managed to be a little bit early!

The compres were about food. And my stomach was growling even though I had breakfast. Passage A was about xia mian [prawn mee] and Passage B was about beef noodles. Ahhh! Its been so long since I ate beef noodles at Cine! I want to go again. -.-

Well after that I was so hungry that I chiong-ed up to the art room to find Shumei so we could go for lunch. But she was fiddling with the art room computers and clicking ard PhotoShop. Since I was trained at PhotoShop last year for my job, I tried helping her. But I forgot everything! Sad.

Yeah then it was my turn to play ard Photoshop so in the end we didnt go for lunch. I miss the canteen's food!

Then I headed home. At least today saved money on lunch haha!

On the bus...I was just listening to music and looking out the window. Then suddenly I thought of him. I duno how but..I suddenly remembered the things we used to do last time. I have a weird habit of getting nostalgic when I'm travelling.

Then I heard God speak to me.


Do not despise him; learn from him.


I was like, "ah?"

But I remained silent and just listened to God first. He took me through the times we had together and showed me how badly I reacted to certain issues. Then He showed me the present. Everything seemed distorted and destroyed in my hands. I was so overwhelmed by my own actions, so ashamed of my horrible behaviour.

I was so regretful. I nearly cried, then I heard Him say that its not too late to make amendments. So I sat up in the bus and I went through my mind what would be my next step.

Its so amazing how God speaks to you by slowly and gently moving your thoughts. Its not as if He suddenly thrusts an image or clip into your brain and in front of your eyes.

He waits until you're quiet, and when you're vulnerable to anything you think of. Once you have your first thought or reflection, He'll move you and speak so clearly. Its soft and gentle but it hit me harder than a frying pan on my head.

Its time I did something about my own life and relations, rather than expecting God to work the miracle in it. Its time that I will listen to God, and not just hear what He's saying. So, its time to obey. He knows all anyway ;)


I duno if this song is written for God, but to me, that "someone" definitely is God. And I love this song.